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Wednesday’s Wildflower……”Forget not that the Earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair.”

Khalil Gibran


I am the queen of Post-it Notes. I put the little things anywhere that I can see them. On the counter…over the kitchen sink…on my bathroom mirror…even on the dash of my car, for those days when I just can’t “think.”

My Post-it Notes may not be typical, however, when compared to what others jot down for their daily reminders. I have a suspicion that my “to-do” list is somewhat unique, based on what I need to properly function in this mind God has given me. Notes that say…

“Be Happy”…”Change”…”Give it up”…”Surrender”…”Love Everybody”…”Be Present”…”Let Go”…or, one of my personal favorites, “This is not loving to me.”

I’ve become so accustomed to notes like this hanging around my house that, randomly, when I step back and look at my home through the eyes of an outside observer, I wonder…Oh my God. What do people think when they come into my house and see all of this???

Do they think that I am healthy? Do they think that I’m insane? Do they think that I am striving to improve myself? Do they think that I’m barely coping, living moment by moment, testing the murky waters with each shaky step?

Because, whatever they think, all of those thoughts would be true, as true for me as they are for you.

The most intriguing thing about this argument is that, the only way to truly know if you’re feeling healthy is to know what it feels like to be unhealthy first. It you’re feeling incredibly sane today, that means that you understand what it feels like to be a little “insane.” It’s like yin and yang…one has to balance out the other. The definition of words mean absolutely nothing if you have no personal comprehension of what the opposite is.

So, I’ve had a few of those shaky days over the past two weeks. Forgive me for being so blunt but, this kiddo is going through early menopause and the hormones that yank me back and forth are unforgiving. Panic attacks? Yes. Feeling out of my body? Oh…yes. But the opposite experience, as well. Moments of pure joy, elation and quiet peace.

So, this morning, when the tickling of anxiety started penetrating my being, I somehow remembered my newest Post-it Note, the one that says…”Just Be.” Ironically, I was meditating when the panic snuck in, and so was calm enough to understand that “Just Be” meant…don’t run.

Stay here. Face it. Look your panic in the eye and ask it what it wants from you. “Just be” with it…without trying to escape.

If you’ve ever experienced a panic attack, then you must know that “not running” from it is, quite possibly, one of the hardest things you’ll ever be required to do.

But on my chair, in the dark, my eyes squeezed fiercely shut, a funny thing happened. Like a heavy blanket coming over my body, starting at the top of my head and moving down to my crossed legs, I felt myself completely relax. I looked out at my anxiety, and it looked back at me, and somewhere, in between, we let go.

Today, my wish for you? Just be.

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Just living is not must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower. ~Hans Christian Andersen

I am a mother, a blogger and the author of the memoir Pitter-Pat: A Mother's Journey from Loss to New Life. I am currently in training to be a life coach through Martha Beck's Wayfinder Life Coach Training Program. I write about grief, love, and the beauty of new beginnings. My other interests are meditating, walking outside and doing pretty much anything that brings me closer to nature.


  1. May 9, 2018

    Good thoughts and good ideas, we can all learn from your experiences.

    • awakeningwildflower
      May 9, 2018

      Everyone has joy, and everyone has panic. Maybe the key is to simply stay present no matter what life throws at us. I have to believe that every moment is a gift that has a lesson woven into it.

  2. How absolutely beautiful!
    My house is full of post-it notes too, mainly because my kids love them so much and hang them up everywhere, ha!
    But what a fantastic way to remind yourself to ‘just be’! I will need to do this for myself. Thank you!! xoxo

    • awakeningwildflower
      May 9, 2018

      You are very welcome! As I write this note to you, the chimes right outside my office window are singing to me…reminding me to stay present, to just be. xoxo

  3. May 9, 2018

    Perfect, my beautiful soul sister absolutely perfect, your authentic you is BEAUTIFUL and your face to face encounter to letting go..absolutely beautiful!

    • awakeningwildflower
      May 9, 2018

      Thanks, my sweet 🙂

    • awakeningwildflower
      May 18, 2018

      I know! That’s one of my biggest post-it notes in the house–I keep it on the bathroom mirror where I see it first thing every day 🙂 It’s a phrase I borrowed from Dr Joe Dispenza…he’s full of good lines.

  4. June 17, 2018

    Wonderful ideas! Very inspiring post!💗

    • awakeningwildflower
      June 17, 2018

      Thank you!

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